Spiritual pregnancy - reflections upon 5 months!

On this Friday I will be 20 weeks pregnant. So magical, crazy, emotional and I have to say that WOW what a journey the last 5 month has been! There has been so many changes physically, emotionally, practically and the biggest one of all - my energy. I felt guided to share some of the reflections that has been lurking in me the last couple of months - with the intention to share my approach to pregnancy for you to remember feminine wisdom aspects that you may have forgotten.

ALLOWING THE STRETCH

The physical changes already started to happen from when I got pregnant. I remember the first weeks after where the fertilised egg was trying to attach to my womb I got INSANE cramps (especially in ((lets just get super personal right away shall we) in specific lovemaking positions!). A cramp in my womb that I never felt so intense. Little did I now because I just thought it was my period getting ready to arrive. Then my breast started changing (read: growing!) and I just thought COOL I like this look. Haha so blind! And the worst thing of it all - MY NOSE! Yes what that the actual bip! It started cloaking up and I had to breath through my mouth, and I would wake up feeling like a dessert had arrived in my mouth while sleeping. This specific issue I then learned is a super regular pregnancy thing, and most women who tried to be pregnant before will know that they are pregnant because of there nose is blocked before any other signal has arrived. One month into my pregnancy I felt really interesting changes in my energyfield. A whole new level of SOFTNESS arrived and every small feeling of bitterness arriving from time to time was just vanished. A craving to be creative kicked in. An introvertedness and a silent state arrived. Much less words had a need to come out of me. Feeling no need to keep a conversation going or saying "empty extra words" when a coping mechanism for being extra sweet/kind/polite would have been activate previously in me.

Overall I'm more sensitive. The music does not need to be high volume like I loved it before and the way I dance is much more subtle and soft. My fireelelement has been turned down and my earthelement has been turned up. I feel more grounded, rooted and calm than ever! My nervous system is completely relaxed and I feel like my energy is circulating inwards instead of outwards.

- My amazing man proposed to me a little after 3 month in the pregnancy <3

TAKE YOUR SPACE MY ANGEL I CAN HOLD IT A sentence that came to me when I was looking at my new body in the mirror. My doubled sized front. My growing stomach that in the beginning just looking like I was bloated 24-7. My itchy skin, my SUPER sensitive nipples and my sore pelvic floor. I look took my hands on my womb and connected to the baby - Take your space my Angel I can hold it. No matter how much that we are stretching energetically and physically, and no matter how much I will expand I CAN HOLD IT. As your mother and as the woman I am I will turn my feelings of frustration into love, because my inner knowing deeply tells me that YOU. CAN. FEEL. EVERYTHING! Every emotion, feeling, thought hormone and chemical reaction that my brain and body is producing you can feel! I will take of my needs, because then I take care of your needs as you are the extension of me.

I actively work on tapping into allowance and surrendering. Those two states are KEY. Keys to follow every guidance you send me and keys to give you what you are asking for. For example - I always had a funky relationship to milk products and the last 6 years I haven't touched ANY milk product at all. But then after I got pregnant I started CRAVING cheese and stuff like ice cream and milkshake made on milk! For many years I have eaten the vegan alternatives, but now my body communicated to me "I want the feta cheese made on cows milk and I want the ice cream made on milk". Uhmm okay pretty random for my head, but body wants what the body wants, so I allow and surrender into an intelligence so much bigger than my monkey mind.

I AM SO EXCITED TO GIVE BIRTH! This is such an interesting topic. My experience is that most women are traumatised by the general statement from mothers, friends and woman in society that it is painful as hell and it is the worst thing a woman can go through! I see and understand why we hold this fear in our system but my inner knowing is totally not resonating with this fear. A sentence that came to me very early in my pregnancy is that giving birth: IT IS ME - WITH ME! (This came out because my fiancee and I didn't know whether I would give birth in Denmark, Sweden or Chile and people would ask me it I felt most safe giving birth in Denmark, my homecountry). I'm the woman responsible for BREATHING and SURRENDERING into my body wise system that goes BEYOND my monkeymind intelligence once again!! No matter which hospital, apartment or country I'm in, when giving birth is me with me. Leaning into the knowing that every woman before me has gone through this rite of passage into motherhood and we were BORN to do it and MASTER it. The more I then educate myself on this topic I have then found so many mothers writing their amazing beautiful more or less PAINLESS birth stories! I see that a mindset that all of these women hold is that they educated them self before giving birth instead of giving their power away to the hospital - (which also for some has been including finding midwives and doulas that can hold space for them to heal fears and make them birthmature). I also see that going through a more easefull birth is deeply linked to your feeling of trust in yourself, your ability to let go of control and your ability to surrender.

- Abundance, selfcare and pleasure day with one of my sweet Vølva sisters in Marienlyst Spa

A WHOLE NEW WORLD - speaking my needs to my partner more than ever! I'm allowing myself alot of integration time like sitting in the bathtub for 3 hours or looking out the window in silence. I ask my man to touch me the way my body is craving and I tell him what I need more than ever. I feel so deeply grateful for his empathy and ability to acknowledge all the changes that I'm going through without really understanding it embodied as the male body never will go through such a stretch. I see a sad tendency in society up until this point of time that (pregnant) woman will not speak up their needs from a place of clarity of what they want and a lack of communicating from softness that will make the man frustrated, unpleasant or restless that then will lead to the woman will get ANGRY, frustrated and crying from discouragement. What both men and woman have to understand is that we have been living in a VERY masculine energy dominated world and we live in a world designed for men to thrive and for women to be more challenged (like working for 8 months which nauseousness and a level of fatigue beyond any hangover until maternity leave... What happened to honouring the sacred state of pregnancy?) Basically this means for me that it is women main role to EDUCATE their men of what she desire, need and wants. Telling him from a place of softness and clarity - "my love, I would feel so good if you touched me like THIS *show him*". Instead of getting angry at him for being able to read your mind, duh!

Very soon I will launch my new video course to heal your soft sensual nature and learn to get your (male)partner to hold space for you coming back to your feminine essence.

This was a little bit of reflections from my pregnancy bubble, please share if this resonated with you - the world needs the feminine energy restored more than ever, so every man and oman on earth can come back to a state of wholeness and union between the masculine and feminine energies within and without.

Have a beautiful day, with love

- Josefa